You just know right?

When you know, you know right? I had some real shit relationships in my past. I had a lot of shit i had to deal with between them from abuse to rape to everything above it was horrible... well I finally found MY person. My perfect match he's adorable, he doesn't care I have two kids. He doesn't care I have so much wrong mental wise like depression anxiety etc. he wants to help me ima very suicidal person which sucks to admit but it's true unfortunately, and so I was talking to him about it and he told me hes the same way and I wanted to die a bit inside because it just hurt knowing someone as awesome as him ever felt that way... he's a romantic, he's a gentleman, and he's literally me lol. I don't get how anyone could make him feel so crappy :( but I haven't been happier with anyone like this before, he makes me feel like I'm on cloud 9 and the most perfect person he constantly says how beautiful i am, and how he wants me and no one else. I just had to brag for a second because for once I have a sweetheart in my life, after all the abuse, mentally physically verbally, all the bullshit and the hard times I went through I finally feel like this is my big break 😭❤️