Life is crazy

It's so crazy how u planned to get pregnant and you actually conceived, and u see those positive lines on the test and ur screaming and shouting for joy and your watching your belly grow and than u wake up to extreme pain and before u know it the doctor is rushing you to surgery because you are having an ectopic pregnancy, u get out of surgery and everything still don't seem real ur asking urself WTF just happened,ur doped up on so many meds u cant think straight all u remember is the doctor telling u he had to take the baby and one of ur tubes, and u finally get him and u can't walk from surgery and u look at your SO and u ask so we don't have a baby in my belly anymore? He shook his head no and we both cried our eyes out, now I'm back where I started ttc again, seeing only one line again, and everytime u see or talk to somebody they bring up how sorry they are for my lost, I'm left with these three scars on my stomach from surgery and it's a constant reminder my body is just broken and those scars are from the baby I was supposed to deliver in December...heres to back ttc again 😕😕😕