Feeling guilty :\

When I had my daughter back in December, I was so excited to breastfeed. But, unfortunately, I didn't really ever get to. Long story short, I started internally bleeding for 4 hours and had emergency surgery and had a drain tube put in my side. I breastfed her twice but, it was so painful. I tried again after the drain was removed but, she didn't like it and hasn't liked it since. I have kind of given up which really sucks because I had looked forward to breastfeeding so much! I feel bad also because, I have dried up and she isn't getting any breast milk anymore. I just feel like I wasn't able to manage the one thing that is so important for children and she just hates being on breast. I guess I just need someone to tell me that I'm over reacting? Lol