Anyone with me? So emotional and feeling done 😩

I'm almost 36 weeks now and just having such a hard time still going into work each day. I'm on my feet allllll day for 8 hr shifts, and constantly lifting boxes throughout the day as well as getting up and down off the floor, and walking around the store all day, not to mention I also work "retail" (a grocery store) and have to be ultra polite and peppy with customers all day, plus add to that the constant pelvic lightning pain as baby's head has been down for a while now- it almost takes the breath out of me (even with a belly band or sports tape on my belly).

"How are you feeling?" Wellll ...

I get overwhelmed just on my drive in to work, knowing that I have sooo much still to do at home before the baby comes (literally haven't had time to get a single thing done with her nursery at all) and also overwhelmed knowing that I'm walking into work already tired and in pain before my shift even starts and then I'm entering into 8 hrs of doing things that are just going to physically and emotionally drain me even more.

To top it all off, I have been having a hard time having a filter over my mouth at work, and sometimes say things that are too bold, snarky, or sarcastic and are way out of character for me, and then I come home feeling like an idiot wishing I could take back so many things I've said 🤦‍♀️

Another cherry on top of all of it is having to hear every customer and co-worker's comments to me about how I look or constantly asking me how I'm feeling. I feel bad giving a real answer because I don't feel that great, and so in the end I just feel like a whiny baby who should just go hide in a hole until this whole thing is over.

Literally yesterday at work a customer said to me "you look SO much better now than you did in your first two trimesters. You were so puffy and bloated before, don't you think??" Uhhhh..........

I only have 12 more shifts of being officially on the schedule (I'll work full time up to 38 weeks, and then continue to pick up shifts after that until the baby comes), but I'm feeling so overwhelmed today just thinking about going in to work AGAIN and again and again... I know I just need to put on my big girl panties and suck it up, but I'm just wondering if any of you are feeling in the same boat. I'm wiped.

I love my job on a normal day, and I have worked for this company for over 10 years so I am really well off there. I know I shouldn't be complaining, but I'm just soooo done. Im done and then I feel bad for being so "done". I am just an overwhelmed emotional tired mess.

I almost started tearing up on the way into work today and then when I had to wait in line for almost half of my lunch break 😭 And then was crying now before writing out this post. I feel like a crazy person. Too many emotionsssss

C'mon baby, you can come out now and end this thing