I just really needed to rant.

This is a bit of a rant. I really needed to let this out.

This year has been a joke! 3 miscarriages from September to May.

I'm not even sad anymore, I'm damn right angry!

I'm so angry that's it's taking so long for results for APS & even then if it's not that well back to the drawing board!

I'm so angry that I have this amazing wonderful 2 year old little boy who deserves a sibling so so much!

I'm angry that I should be due this month from my 2nd miscarriage.

I'm just bloody angry!

I can't stop being angry about it all.

Like what the hell?! Why does this happen to people?! Am I being punished? If so I'd like to know what for.

I have literally no one I can talk to because it makes them uncomfortable. It's not their fault I know but I'm angry at them and I don't even know why!

I want to try again so so badly, but I can already see the look on our families face when they find out 'again Samantha? When will you give up?' Like screw them!

I keep seeing all my friends floating through pregnancy, my best friend told me the day I lost my last that she was pregnant, hadn't even been trying, she waited a whole 15 minutes after I told her it was another loss to say 'I'm pregnant! Are you happy for me?!' I would never wish ill on her or her little baby but god I want that! & I am happy for her, but I'm so so jealous!

And I've just got my period after 15'weeks, maybe it's a period who the hell knows.

I really needed to get that out.