negative :(

Just took another pregnancy test for it to be negative, yet again. I want to cry so bad and it's just so discouraging. I don't know what to do or how to feel. I'm just so upset and it's like I try to trick my body into knowing it'll be negative, hoping that it will prove me wrong and be positive.

UPDATE: I finally got the blood test results back.. I've been looking multiple times a day since wednesday for the results, i woke up today and went on the patient portal and i saw that its finally on there !! I got so excited... just to open it... just to see that its negative... been crying on and off since i woke up...