Hi guys!

I've been MIA for a couple weeks because I've had a lot on my mind...my husband and I decided that we are going to start the adoption process. We start classes in June. I was so totally stoked! We were stoked, rather!

Well, my husband has always been around babies...and his baby fever is so much worse than mine. This past weekend we "borrowed" his sister's three year old so I could see what it would be like ( not that I ever thought it would be easy) and I freaked out. I hated it....I hated not having freedom and I hated not having my husband's full attention (yes, I know...please don't judge), I hate that when we went to the museum she was afraid....and the list goes on.

You guys can totally accuse me of being insensitive. I totally was...but I don't know why I was feeling that way! Now I'm terrified! Am I not ready? What's going on with me!? I thought this is what I wanted! :-(