38 Weeks.

I'm 38 weeks. I am so miserable.. I want my little boy but I feel like I'm not even effaced.. I got checked last week's and I was only "thinning out" ...how does it feel to dialate .. my pelivic area is sore and so is my lower back but my doctor doesn't check me Everytime unless I say something... and I don't wanna get looked down on asking about a membrane sweep or what not... I just don't wanna be induced with medicines ...and I wanna do my best to avoid a c section.. it getting so close and I don't wanna carry over my due date of September 1st. because my bday is September 5th