Are you kidding me??

I'm 4 days late but just started spotting. I was so hopeful that I was pregnant and now I'm just so annoyed. It seems like everyone I know is getting pregnant without trying or within their first month of trying. We've been off and on for the past year. (Off and on because my husband's work schedule is insane so there were months it would have been impossible to even have sex.) We wanted to foster or adopt but my husband can't be home from work for the training required and it's starting to feel like the universe just doesn't want us to have anymore children. (We have one 4 year old little girl already.) We really want more kids and it just super sucks that it isn't happening for us.