Getting Closer to my Would've Been Due Date

I would've been having my baby girl around September 16 which is so hard for me because I miscarried back at the end of February. It's just really hard as we get closer because I imagine what my belly would've looked like and how my now office would've been arranged if it was a little pink nursery. My boyfriend and I don't talk about it unless I bring it up, in that case he's super supportive but it still breaks me apart inside. I hate complaining and feeling sorry for myself but it's hard sometimes. "God had other plans" doesn't help me at all which is all anyone ever says. Anyone else ever dealt with this or been through it?