Oh wow. This is the first time I've ever had the guts to ask about this, but it's literally killing me. I hang around a huge group of people, some aren't the nicest, but it used to be fun. A lot of people have turned on me too, creating all sorts of drama for me. I'm only in year seven and I want to quit already, it's terrible. I still have my two best friends from primary school, one never used to be interested with guys. Now, don't get me wrong! There's nothing wrong with liking a guy, but when your 12 and 13, there's no need for one. You're young, and free! Why bother? But I can't stop them, it's their choice and their mistakes, they only learn from that. But it's been going too far, she makes out with guys, let's them touch her, she goes through them so fast! Then they join up with other people, and I always get left behind as if I never mattered. One moment, I'm the best, the other second, I'm someone else's shadow and it's annoying the crap outta me! My bestest friend is almost as if she's using me, I'm never in her view of attention, until the other girl is gone. It's a cycle, the only one getting destroyed, is me. They wouldn't care if I told them, now I'm stuck between decisions. Be the one who stays, the truest, or be the one who gets sick of it all and leaves. I was told once, the best decision that a family friend had made, was to find another group. And her and that group became better friends than the last. It makes me wonder, but, I'm not sure. Some days it's how it should be, but most now, it just makes me want to rip out all my hair. I'm over being judged by other girls, girls who don't realize how I don't care if I'm a bitch or different, if I'm not pretty or like them. Paler than average, have wilder hair than them. I'm me and I've finally respected that, yet nobody is making me feel like I should.

Point is I'm stuck, really stuck. I'm in the middle between broken and happy, and pretty damn confused.