Pregnancy blues 😕

​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​This is my first pregnancy and it has been very tough for me since the beginning. My partner and I have been fighting for our child every step of the way (my first child and his as well) our baby was diagnosed with gastroschisis since I was 3 months, we decided to still continue the pregnancy but now that I'm 5 months things have gotten worse. The doctor keeps pushing for a medical abortion, but I cannot do that to my baby. I am aware of all the risks, but I just feel like if my baby hasn't given up why should I? If the time comes then let it! I want to have the satisfaction of doing everything I could from my part. My last appointment he seemed bothered by my choice and said "I'll give you another sonogram appointment for 4 weeks, but I doubt your baby will still be alive" I was crushed but still believe in my baby. My baby is more active than ever and the little kicks I feel every single day is what keeps me going. Every other test that the baby has had this far has come out very good and each day that goes by it keeps getting bigger and bigger. I have huge faith, I just wish people didn't give up so easily. We don't know the gender yet because of the baby's condition but I will be doing the blood one. I'm half way done with this pregnancy but now it's when I'm feeling uglier than ever and my partner and I are very distant. I'm in need of more strength to get by!! Prayers will be appreciated 💛💚💚💚

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