Just want to join them!!!

I've had 2 friends announce today, 1 has been posting ultra sounds and stuff all day, 1 thinks they may be pregnant, and 1 friend delivered. I am so happy for all if them, but what I wouldn't give to join them!! TTC #1 for almost 10 months now and I've stopped having periods. now almost 5 months without one. Not pregnant and have never been on birth control so idk what's up. I use to be pretty regular. Was only at the most 4-5 days off, nothing like this before. I just wish it would happen already!!! 😢💔