caution *** will be a long post.... so I have honestly spent a decent amount of my very short adult life desperately trying to convince myself that I don't want children. as time progresses i realize how much of it was to just hide my true feelings of eventually wanting to have a baby. I talked to SO and he agreed that we would like to start trying but not trying in the same sense but now that we've discussed this I have been having some anxiety. we've been together for about 4 years but all my life I've had a rather close relationship with my mother and obviously since im grown up now weve kind of distanced some of the things we talk about together so when it comes to this subject of course I'm her baby so it gives me the most extreme anxiety even thinking about telling her that "I'm pregnant" if/when the time comes. would any one have a little insight on how to calm my nerves and maybe think about how to think about and handle this more maturely? one other thing I would like to add is that I don't have what one would call a "friend" to talk to (a female that understand these wants) so it makes it somewhat frustrating feeling like you're alone..