I'm ready to give up

Im ready to give up on my relationship. And at the same time I'm not sure what to do. I've had a major bad history with relationships. And I probably should've stopped a long time ago. I just wanted what my mom and dad have. But it will never happen. My husband isn't a bad person, he just has no idea and will not learn to show emotion. which makes me wonder if he even does care. He doesn't speak anything nice, he doesn't gift, sexually it's in and out. There's no romance, no passion, no time spent on me. I've brought it up multiple times and even mentioned counseling, but it's never going to happen. I'd rather be alone and find what I need sexually and stay single. But then I think, no one will want me, and I have a home, car, etc.... and that'll all change if i left. I don't know what to do anymore. do m I stay and give up. or do I leave and be alone the rest of my life. I'm not young anymore and not attractive. sorry just venting. thank you