So I'm 16 weeks pp and I'm almost positive I have ppd. I was supposed to go to the doctor last Wednesday finally but my son had a doctors appointment with a specialist and I couldn't go I have to wait another 2 weeks and I don't know if I should just find someone else to see me. I'm miserable I hate my life and I have no clue how it even got like this in such a short amount of time! Me and my husband have been together 10yrs we have never fought always had the best relationship, we decided that he would have his vasectomy reversed and have a child together and we just knew that our sweet baby would bring us even closer with each other. But that's not what has happened at all it's the opposite!!! Everything was amazing for the first 2 weeks after bringing the baby home then our 18yr old son (my step son) moved in unexpectedly and has done nothing for the last 3 months but wreck my car, sleep until 1 in the afternoon, and not go look for a job..... I can't stand it and what I can't stand even more is that my husband says I'm a wedge between them and I "pick on him" when in reality all he does is make excuses that he smokes pot all day and it's "not his fault" hes immature. He freaking went behind my back and bought him a Jeep the week our son totaled my brand new car I had only had 22 days and spent all of July and August working on it totally ignoring me and his newborn and then blames me that I've changed and I'm mean because I ask him to help me. I was breastfeeding our son and after my car got wrecked and the Jeep my milk dried up in 3 days and it honestly broke my heart i couldn't nurse anymore. He wasn't there at all to help me I've tried talking to him I've tried yelling pouring my heart out being silent you name it I've tried it... it's to the point now I'm just so depressed I stay in my room. When they are inside I'm in my room when they go out into the garage I got into the rest of the house. My husband makes me feel and think that it's all my fault and now I'm 2nd guessing myself that I'm overreacting... I just don't think I am... Since June our son has cost us $7800.00 and I'm stressed and broke and this isn't how I pictured life with a new baby. And to top it all off our son was born with a club foot and ive gone to all the appointments and even his surgery alone because my husband was too busy "working on the Jeep" and having a ton of people at our house when I get home after driving 6 hours for his appointment. I don't know how much longer I can do this.... and the awful thing is I don't want to leave but I don't want to feel like this either.