I literally been crying for hours nonstop, trying to cry myself to sleep i mean this literally. It feels like my head is going to explode it hurts so bad. I feel so empty and so alone. I feel so bottled up and boiling like if someone were to shake up a can of soda...

I don't think I want to be here right now I just dont know what to do. I never post on here but I literally have no one at the moment to express myself. For my whole life i never really have anyone to vent to and everything always gets bottled up.

I have been trying to FORCE myself to sleep for hours now but i cant. If feel pissed. Angry. Upset. Negative. Hopeless.

I feel like every aspect of my life is a dead end. I dont feel good about myself, I don't feel good in my relationship, I don't feel good in my work field, i dont feel good about anything in general anymore. Lately ive been trying to find all of the things that could possibly cause me to feel this way. Idk...idk anymore im not even sure how to think anymore. I have not felt good in A LONG TIME like almost a year.

Only thing that makes me genuinely happy anymore really my 5month old daughter.