Don't really know what to think?

So I'll just get right to the point. Me and my SO each have a toy. I have a vibrater and he has like a flashlight that's a pussy. (Lol) so he never really used it when we first got it and I used mine a lot, but still had sex with him.

So I just got out of the shower with my little one, I went into our room and the drawer that his toy is in was open and it was right there. So I opened it and it had been used like yesterday or last night bc it was still wet from cleaning. I immediately get upset. We have still been having sex and stuff, but just once every couple days. I mean I used my toy a lot in the beginning of my second pregnancy bc I was super horny. I still am, but I just am curious if it looks at porn? I mean I did.

I guess I don't really know how I feel. Just kinda sad. I'm not mad at him at all. But I just feel like I'm not pleasing him if he's using that or that my vag isn't tight enough for him idk.. I just feel a little upset to know he used it rather then having sex with me last night bc I wanted to, but I'm also tired bc of this pregnancy and work, and he stays up super late playing video games with his friends and I just can't stay up and wait on him forever.

I look as it as I'm glad he's using that and not some actual other girl(s). I shouldn't even be sad bc he's using a toy we got together and I knew about, not a secrecy or him cheating on me.

*the porn I said I watch is our pictures we've taken of each other. So I guess I just hope he's thinking of me when he's using that thing and not looking at other skinnier pretty girls..

I just needed to vent I guess. I also took it apart and cleaned it properly bc he didn't and I don't want to end up getting an STI bc he didn't clean his toy properly and I think he's cheating or something.