I lost my world 🌎👼🏼

I went to the ultrasound tech yesterday for a fun sneak peek. Only to find out that my baby went home to be with Jesus at 9 weeks. I was rushed to the hospital and have my d&c; last night and stayed in the hospital til this morning. I just want my baby and I don't get why that little baby needed to go so soon. I just feel lost because all this baby stuff sitting here makes me feel so bad and wish even more I got to hold my baby and love in it the way i dreamed of non stop. I'm still a mommy in my eyes my baby is up in heaven and I know it. 😭😭👼🏼💙