Nooo my butt!!!

I've suffered from hemorrhoids for years. I have not had any children. They are from straining when going to the bathroom bc I eat dairy when I shouldn't. Well I got the squatty potty and it has helped so much. So I had to really go today at work and couldn't wait. I went and strained and now I'm butt is killing me. I did the warm bath, ice all that Jazz. I'm only 13 weeks please don't start now butt I can't handle it this early on! My biggest fear is my hemorrhoids when giving birth not even tearing just the hemorrhoids. 😳