long iud story.

sorry this is so long. i just wanted to share my story. I told my doctor I wanted the Iud. We got everything settled with the insurance company and then pharmacy company. All togetger it took about 3 months... i have no idea why so long.

In the beginning of January the Mirena finally came in! I was told to wait untill i got my period to come in for the insertion. January 25th... it was near the end of period and I was ready for this. It was gonna be great! No more pills. No more weight gain. No more remembering. Eventually lighter to no periods. It was all I could ever ask for! And no babies! I could just remove it and get pregnant. It was perfect.

Insertion hurt so much. I screamed as she put it in there. I wish my husband had been there to hold my hand. It was horrible pain. I cried and I could feel all the color drain from me. I got no local anesthetic. I took it like a true champ. My doctor looked at me like I was crazy. Like no one else in her office had ever screamed and cried with the insertion. Didn't matter. I had it in me now. I had to come back a week later to see if it stayed in place.

Right when I got home, all I wanted was to feel no pain and I wanted something hot on me. I got a hot pack and took so many pain killer. Not strong ones, but still a lot. Nothing helped the pain! It was like a horrible cramp that never went away. Next day I felt better and I would get random 2 second cramps here and there. Nothing bad. Nothing compares to the day before anyways.

I was bleeding some during that week. It wasn't heavy, or I don't remember it being heavy. I went to my doctor and it looked great. Nothing was out of place and I was set for 5 years! Wow! I think it was maybe 2 weeks before I felt okay to have sex. Just the pain from the insertion was still there and I didn't want anything up my hoo haa.

A month went by and I got my period. Holy hell. I would get horrible cramps. I would bend down in pain from them. Something I never got before either. I though of it as an adjustment period. However, this kept happening. And my periods never went away. I would get light periods, like one regular pad a day for a day and then panty liners for the rest of the time. Honestly that was great. I'll miss that part. But the cramps. Omg!

Then, I went psycho on my my husband. All the time. For no reason at all. For him wanting me to scratch his back. Or me not getting to watch a show I wanted. Or for him eating a popsicle when I wasn't eating one. I'm not kidding. Everything got me so mad and frustrated. I always thought it was just me being grumpy. He thought so too. Then I realized what I was doing and I would continue. I couldn't stop. I was a horrible wife for 8 months. I couldn't even get myself to remain calm. I hated that. I hated that I was mean to my best friend. And he just had to take it. My emotions were just all over the place. I really would be happy one second, crying the next and screaming from anger the next.

Then I just gradually started hating doing most things. I loved to cook and bake. And that was nonexistent. It would take me hours to try and get up to do something productive. And then I hated seeing people. I would not want to go out all weekend. My favorite spot was in bed. I even hated seeing my family and my best friend. I would literally cancel all plans. I could never get myself to do anything. It was the most frustrating thing.

Besides having no motivation to do anything, my sex drive was low. Which was not like me at all.

And when I did have sex, I never had a good orgasm. I Didn't enjoy having sex with my partner. I would offer it to him in hopes that I could maybe enjoy it this time. And I didn't. It brought me to tears after sex after my husband fell asleep. What was wrong with me?

I knew it was the IUD but it hadn't even been a year since I got it. I would weigh the pros and cons and the only good thing was lighter periods. That's it. Everything else was a horrible side effect.

One night my husband and I got into an argument over something dumb again, as per usual nowadays with this thing inside me. I cried the whole night trying to explain to him how I felt. How nothing was like the old me. I'm glad he saw it too, and we agreed that this thing had to be removed. Sure enough, I called as soon as I could to get it removed. I set an appointment that same day. That was easy.

Removal was so easy. It took two seconds. I told my doctor was what happened and she was so glad that I decided to remove it because none of that should've happened to me. Instantly after I got it removed, I felt different. I know it would be too soon to tell but it's true. My attitude changed within hours. I am so glad i don't have it annynore. That thing is the devil. I know a lot of people like it and they keep it all give years and they have no problems. Not me, and that's okay.

I got it removed 8/31. On 9/2 I started bleeding. Still bleeding (9/8). It's like a regular period. Except no cramps. So I'm not sure if it's a period or removal bleeding. We've had sex 3 times already. Last night after sex I noticed blood clots everywhere! On him on the sheets on me. Lots of huge ones! I'm glad my body is removing all that mirena stuff out of me. The bleeding was lighter until last night. So idk what's up with that, but I'm not worrying cause this is just my body trying to adjust after 3.5 years of being on birth control. I'm not on any sort of birth control. No condoms or anything. If I get pregnant I get pregnant. I just want my body to be free of excessive hormones for now. In a few months I 'll go back to some sort of pill. For now, it's up to fate.

For everyone out there trying to decide if you want the IUD, try it everyone is different. Some people truly love it. And some like me, think it's the devil in the form of plastic. 🙃