D&C tomorrow

My D&c; is tomorrow morning... and even though I saw nothing on the last ultrasound and it was confirmed... call me crazy but even though I know it is not there I hold on to hope that it's all a big mistake and by Gods grace it will appear again before anything is done... I know maybe I'm hurting myself more emotionally but I can't help but to hold on to that... I am afraid of the after feeling, I am afraid to feel empty inside, I am afraid to go crazy because it's finally gone, afraid of any pain caused my this procedure. please pray for me.