ugh DIETING and lack of motivation

i basically just want to whine for a second so bare with me.

i lost a lot of weight a few years ago, went vegan for 2.5 yrs to really finish off my goals with a BAM and look hot as hell. joke was on me tho because the high carb low fat vegan diet that i was encouraged to do made me gain all the weight back pretty fuckin fast. can you say DEVASTATING? after all the effort and money i spent on my new body? So ever since then ive just had such a hard time with eating clean and actually GOOD. i workout all the time but i just wanna eat pizza rolls and other trash. good stuff like vegetables definitely in there, but mainly trash. SOS. want abs and hot butt

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