I am crazy about my friend, but she has a boyfried and I'm married, very happily.

So yea... I just need to put it out there. My college friend, whom I have hooked up with more than once and before she had her boyfriend was even included in a wild night with my husband (very awesome), I am crazy about her. The thing is, I am also crazy about my husband, so I can't cheat. I would do it with both of them (vry happily, my husband would also be very happy about that, she's fucking hot!) but then she'd be cheating, and I don't want to be a part of that. I just wish the would break up! I'm not being mean, she is in a twisted relationship, she kind of hates because he is super great at everything, but their sexlife suuuucks! Still, I used to cheat on my exboyfriend. I was terrible, and I felt no guilt, poor guy. But as I matured I understood that I wasnt only cheating him, I was cheating myself. This time is different. I adore my husband, I can't imagine not being with him, he is just too good. But this girl... if only she didnt have a boyfriend... or if at least she didnt have all the problems she has with him and wouldnt

d how she is thinking about cheating, maybe I could forget about it... but nooooo she tortures me... she always has, fucking tease...