I'm going crazy

This is not a drill 😂 and y'all are probably going to laugh at me... but no, SERIOUSLY. My boyfriend is away for work and it's been almost 6 months since we've seen each other and had sex. I've sent him multiple sexy pictures, literally almost broke my damn neck 🖐🏻😭😂 and he WILL NOT send me anything. I've asked like 50 times at least. But he'll tease me and send me a picture of his crotch and say "new jeans" 🙄 like mother f***er lmao. Yes I'd much rather him be here OBVIOUSLY, but in the meantime I can take care of myself and I'd much rather do it to my own man than some random dude online. He won't sext, talk dirty, nothing. I understand some people are embarrassed but come on. Ya girl is dying.