Relationship

You guys I feel weird bc my boo and I broke things off this summer and now that we're back in school we've both been trying to get back where we was but I keep remembering all of the fucked up things that happened between both of us , which causes me to act like idc when I really do😩, today I asked him was I still his boo and he said where getting back on that path , I just said ok throwing shade a lil.. I jus want what he had before all of this , I just wanna feel special to someone again not all mean& cold hearted to the boy I care so deeply about! He said we'll talk in person tomorrow , I just hope I don't say anything stupid & I don't look really vulnerable. But I want to str8 up with him and tell him I miss how we used to be and I also want him to be str8 with me and tell how he really feels about me. So we could make up 😜😊, when I come off😂🙄