Am i wrong?

My boyfriend told me before that he didn't want me to get a vibrator but I ordered one and i told him. He just said bye and hung up the phone on me. And when i called him back, he said he didn't want to talk to me. We live far from each other and tom he was supposed to come see me . We were going to a friend's dinner but he said he's not coming anymore. He took my virginity and so far sex has been hurting more than anything else. I haven't orgasmed yet from having sex with him. He thinks that i have bc my legs shake but it's because im tired. I never told him that bc I didn't want to make him feel bad. But the vibrator is a small one like u wear on ur finger and i showed since he doesn't want me inserting anything other than his penis inside me. It's my body and I should be able to figure out what i likr sexually right? Please help