Has anyone ever been a SAHM and gotten a divorce? My husband has consistently been lying to me for years, he's cheated, he won't go to counseling. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so depressed that I've been starting to have really dark thoughts. I want out. I have tried so hard to make it work but I am exhausted.

The biggest problem is that I am a stay at home mom with 2 little boys and NO family in the state that I live in. I've also become very isolated and haven't seen or talked to my "friends" in I don't even know how long. Maybe a year now. So I don't really have any support.

I feel like I'm being backed into a corner and the only way out is a -bad- way out. I just need advice and want to know how I'm supposed to leave when it seems so impossible?

Thanks.

Edit- I want to stay anonymous because I'm embarrassed about this happening to my marriage so I'll answer questions like this.

My boys are both under 2 so they're young

My family is actually not able to help if they wanted to because they were recently affected by one of the hurricanes (keeping their location somewhat private). Even if they weren't dealing with that, they wouldn't have room for us unfortunately.

Also I wanted to say thank you to everyone who responded. I wasn't aware of some of the options you guys posted about so I'll look into these things some more. I just have no idea how this all works!