Don't know how to describe this.

I just feel defeated I guess. We agreed at the end of the year that well try to start conceiving but I don't think he actually wants to. We bought a house together, but we aren't going to get married (or even engaged anytime soon) and he makes weird comments about not having sex when he thinks I'm ovulating... So I think he just doesn't want this life. PS were in our 30s and now I feel I'm just waist time, and could find someone who wants this life...