Terrified..

I just found out that the city I live in does not offer edidurals to women in labour. I have been planning to get one since I found out I was pregnant. The closest city to me that offers it is 2 and a half hours away. I'm so scared of giving birth without one...and I mom's do natural births all the time, but I really didn't want to do it natural. Apparently my hospital offers morphine and fentanyl...but it's like, I don't wanted to be all drugged up, I just wanted to be numb down there.