So Blessed Never Had Imagined

I'm 20 weeks pregnant with my little boy and I feel so happy to have this tiny life growing inside me. My little one is nestled in my belly and every now and again I feel him flip flopping around. A feeling so wonderful, every day of pregnancy excites me and I feel blessed everyday for this miracle.

From that first moment at 4 weeks I saw a faint positive line on the test I've been so happy to have you here with me. I held that test and spun around with tears of happiness in my eyes and the biggest smile on my face. I literally couldn't believe it was true so over those next days I took more tests each confirming my little poppy seed was certainly there with me.

I've wanted a baby for so long and my love Diego blessed me with you, a true gift and I thank him from every part of my soul. The first couple of months while you were just so small I felt so tired and nauseous all the time, but we took you to Cyprus and by the time we returned I was so much like myself again. I think the sunshine fixed me. During that time my usual healthy eating went out the window, all I could eat was pasta and ice lollies. During the first three months I could barely believe you were mine and I was so scared you would be taken away from me. The first time I saw your heart beat at 6 weeks when you were just the size of a bean I felt so relived and happy to see you, I felt so proud of you even then, growing bigger and bigger everyday.

I saw you again at 12 weeks and then at 16 and you grew so fast so quickly. We found out you were a boy.. our beautiful Ezekiel Kai and now I see you as my belly starts to get a bump. I'm so so in love with you, I waited 35 years for you but it was worth the wait. I'm so happy I lived a life of adventure so I have a thousands stories to tell you when growing up and we will create our own together with daddy. We took you to Amsterdam and a Shepard hut in the middle of the Suffolk countryside and your here with me now helping me and giving me the inspiration to finish my PhD. Your are my inspiration