did he ever love me ?

so i’m gonna give y’all the rundown on my last relationship. so last october, we met on tinder. now, we all know people go on tinder just to find hookups (at least in my area) but ya girl had faith. so, him & i match & we talk for a few weeks & decide to meet up. we met in the beginning of november & it was great. well, fast forward to the beginning of december & i text him saying “bet ya didn’t mean to catch feelings for me, huh?” & he was like “nah, i was just gonna hit it & quit it” & i just brushed it off bc whatever. so a few days before christmas, he takes me on a date to chicago & we make things official. happiest girl alive right. fast forward to march. i eventually told him i was still a virgin (he was not) & he was like “well l can change that” mind you, i was absolutely terrified of sex ok. like it got to the point where i would freak out when i would hang out with him. this caused a lot of issues between us bc of my anxiety. we pushed through those problems though. fast forward to june. we hung out & he took me on a walk & we made out & then he looked me in the eyes & told me he loved me. i cried bc i knew right then & there that i loved him too. everything was going great. perfect start to my summer right. well, fast forward to august. we both moved in to college (same city, so we live like 10 min away from each other) & i noticed that things were starting to get weird between us. our conversations were bland & boring. anyways, fast forward to september 9th. he came to my dorm (i have my own room) & i told him i was ready to have sex. so we did. it was great. i thought to myself “ok maybe we needed this boost for our relationship & things would go back to how they used to be.” yeah no, that didn’t happen. i tried making plans to see him & whatnot & he was always like “sorry, i’m super busy with school” like boy wtf. we live 10 min away. you cant spend a couple of hours with me?? so, fast forward to september 23rd. exactly 2 weeks after we had sex. mind you, that was the last time we saw each other in person. this asshole breaks up with me. OVER TEXT !!!!! bitch, we were together for almost a year & you break up with me over text?? he said “this relationship is too stressful & i need to focus on the transition of college.” i asked him how long he’s been feeling like that & he said “for a month.” this mf had sex with me & then decided to break up with me a few weeks later ?? i mean i don’t regret bc i shared that moment with someone i love, but like why did he do that?? idk if he thought that us having sex would make his feelings go away or?? im just suuuuper confused & a little hurt bc he knew that i valued sex & then he goes & does that. ugh i literally hate guys. they’re so dumb. if you read this entire thing, you’re a trooper.