Dear boyfriend: confession 1

DISCLAIMER* I love the person I’m with so much, we have a pretty good relationship but I need to vent because I don’t wanna bitch at him. Also, most of the things I’m about to say we have talked about before but nothings really changed so I’m not sure what I can do 🤷🏼‍♀️............. Dear Boyfriend, you’re my first and hopefully last “real” relationship. My family loves you just as much as I do. There’s a few things that have been bothering me, I’ve brought it up to you before multiple times but I don’t think you take me serious. Today you came home in a bad mood. I mean of course I know work sucks but I get so excited to see you when you come home and I feel almost as if my excitement bothers you. When I kiss your forehead I just want some affection back 🤷🏼‍♀️😏. In the beginning of our relationship our sex was fan-fucking-tastic, 3 years later and we have sex about once a month. Now I know we have an age gap and I know you might be busy from work but I give and give and all you do it take 😔. You whip your penis out and fling it because you want me to rub or suck it and most the time I do because I like too but you NEVER do anything back 😩. I’m always in the mood and sometimes I just need to be pleasured. I just wanna be fingered and ate out 😭😭😭😭 and that’s another thing you stopped eating me out! I’ve asked if it’s me? I’ve asked if I smell or what the hell and you said I never smell you just want me out of the shower first so I try to be sexy and shave aaaanddd I get nothing. Sometimes I feel lonely. Lately I’ve been taking medication just to feel okay. I feel like if I don’t take the pills I won’t be able to hold myself together around you. I think that’s the one thing I haven’t told you, the pills help me make it through the day.