is it bad even if it feels good?

Selena

so I always had a fantasy about waking up to my man trying to have sex with me but I never told my boyfriend or anyone at all because I thought people would think i was weird so yesterday my bf and I got home after going to the club and we made love I couldn't come and he tried to finger me it didn't work so I told him to stop and we cuddles and went to sleep I remember at one point we were turned away from each other so I was asleep and I wake up to my boyfriend feeling me up and he climbs on top of me and starts rubbing his friend against my but and honestly I was so turned on omg I was already naked so he felt how wet I got and it turned him more on i kust kept saying yes do it and he said i want to rape you and that turned me even more on when we finished my legs were trembling and he just kept kissing my neck it was soo good we cuddled and fell asleep again is this wrong you guys like I know some people might think it was rape cause I was asleep but I always wanted to havo_Oe sex like that and God he blew my mind

does anyone else have similar fantasys