Feeling ... lots

I’m 33+4 and had to throw in the towel at work today. I started maternity.

The thing is I’ve got more time to obsess now and I don’t really like it.

Baby 1 so I’m mostly anxious with a smidge of excitement and some terror of what awaits.

And BONUS my aunt has just started campaigning about infant death due to infection caught in delivery! (She has no reason to start this now, it’s totally out of the blue... her last baby is alive and nearly 8) so that’s f-ed me up some too!

Anyone for a good natter? Chat? I don’t really mind the subject but I don’t really have anyone in my life.