Pregnant with disorder

Mannie🌻 • 24.New Yorker.Mainer.Wife.Momma.Step Momma.Photographer🌲✌🏻🌻

So I’m newly pregnant and also struggle with body image issues. I fight my eating disorder everyday. This past summer I deleted all my calorie counting apps and tried to move on but now that I’m pregnant it’s all flooding back. I stare at myself in the mirror hating myself. Watching my thighs grow, my waist.. I get so stuck on it. I’m excited to be pregnant don’t get me wrong. Seeing my bump start fills me with so much joy. It’s just everything else... any other mommas deal with this? I might go talk to a therapist soon cause I need to stay on track for baby.. but I can’t help but dislike myself...