Depression

I don't know if this was all a huge mistake or a sign. One day I'm happy and one day I'm miserable. I see everyone so happy and excited about expecting but I'm not. I'm scared and worried. My anxiety is kicking in on over drive and I can't help it. I have the support of my mom and best friend but that's it. My boyfriend isn't happy. His family isn't either. Everyone's just dealing with it. 😔 I wish I didn't think this way and I was more positive but it's hard being positive all the time, for not only just me but everyone around me. I'm just so tired all the time but I have to continue pushing and going to work even though im completely exhausted and doing everything for me and my boyfriend I'm just at my wits end. I need a vacation