Too soon for sex

So I had met a guy friend in high school that I met through one of my old best friends and he always had a crush on me but through the years he did have other girlfriends and just this year many years later we finally opened up and started to officially start kissing and touching and hanging out at his place a lot but the one thing is I just recently started birth control because I felt that I was ready to have sex I let him know that I was on it and Just this year

We have been through a lot already with arguments and talking and just down right almost having sex but NOT YET JUST GREAT MAKEOUT SESSIONS like I’m aware he wants to but I can’t help but get this crazy feeling that I’m not his biggest priority and he can be so sweet and caring when he wants too

He makes me feel like I’m just a bit crazy when I feel like he is lieing about caring about me just because he wants sex, and just to keep me around to have something to do when he has nothing to do if he puts half the effort in actually being a real boyfriend then how much he talks about sex when I’m around it be great but to me I would actually trust him but I just don’t.

And I feel like it’s crazy just to let him go my mom really doesn’t like him she wants to meet him, but I decided not use I didn’t think he was actually serious about meeting her just to bullshit ME and keep me satisfied. But I just right now feel so confused if I should actually leave him alone and just really move on with my life.

He makes me feel so good when we are together and I guess he wants a connection with me but I’m not sure if his feeling are genuine or just genuine when he wants sex. I like him so much he tells me to tell him how I feel but I feel as a man you should really just show a women that you want to spend time with her and be over and beyond for your women. But I feel he just falls short

Example it’s been a week since I seen him and I barely heard from him or see him step up and show me that he wants to be there for me and my college games and take me out and buy me flowers.

I know I wrote a lot and everyone already tells me to leave him alone but I have some hope that he really wants me or am I just another sex partner HELP !!!