Would you call this a crisis?

The other day I completely broke down in my room, I wanted a cuddle, I felt low, depressed, suicidal, I couldn't stop crying in my room, so I went downstairs to see my dad for a hug, i wanted to be reminded that I wasn't alone, I was safe and secure. But when I got downstairs I broke down in more tears, my face went bright red, I needed everything to end, I made that clear by shouting and screaming at my dad that I wanted to die, I couldn't take it, I was struggling, begging him to let me end my life. He grabbed my arms and just pulled me in and let me sob as much tears as I could.

I don't know if this was a crisis, and if my parents weren't there I 100% wouldn't be alive to right this now.

I've been admitted to hospital before after I'd overdosed, and I didn't feel half as suicidal as what I did the other night.

I'm just wondering so I know whether I can phone crisis team if theyre not home? Or what can I do? I'm so worried and scared after that night 😩