Hosted my best friend’s baby shower today

I am so happy for her, please don’t get me wrong...but it was so hard for me to be there. Her and I started TTC about the same time. She is due in December and here I am still waiting for my turn to become a mommy. Several people at the party asked me when I was going to get pregnant and asking if I was the next. I just wanted to cry. After the party I went over to her house and went through all her gifts with her and her husband and I couldn’t help but feel so jealous that they get to have a baby and all these cute baby things. I am so emotional.

This month especially has been hard because tracking my ovulation has been confusing and unclear, I have no idea when my ovulation occurred and I was so hoping this month would be ours. I want a baby so bad and I tear up about it so often. My husband and I are so ready!!!