Disappointed even tho I shouldn’t be 😭

So I’m almost 34 weeks and been to the hospital 2 times already because of having pains and cramping .

So the first time they said I was perfectly healthy, just iron was little low and I was sent home

And today I was really hoping they’d check me internally to see , and they did

And I was FULLY CLOSED and they also did a rupture test thing to see if my water broke, hat was also negative.

and the cramping was because I have a UTI.

I was disappointed to hear that I’m not even .5 cm dilated. Which sucks because I always having these anxiety attacks and depression and I’m so overwhelmed with this pregnancy and I just want it all to be over . I know I’m suppose to be happy baby wants to stay longer and grow, but it’s really overwhelming when especially when I have 14 month old already at home 😭