IVF causing us to fight!!!

I am so sad right now. Our RE wants it paid it full in December for January and my husband just informed me we won't have the loan by then. I told him I regretted having a wedding and spending the money when we need it now for a baby. He is super upset with me and told me I should file for divorce and find some other guy!!! I told him I was looking forward to trying in January and that every time I have a period I am devastated. Our anniversary is in march and I'm if I don't get a positive after trying for IVF in February I don't know how I'll deal 😢