Penny for your thoughts...

I am hoping some of you can give me some insight as to what you would do if you were in my shoes.....

I’m 29. I’ve been ttc for about 6 months. I came off birth control in May. Had a regular period in May, June, and July. I haven’t had a period since July 30. Today makes it CD 80.

At CD 45 I had had 14 days of near positive opk, and was over two weeks late for AF with all BFN so i knew something was up, figured I wasn’t ovulating and I went to the doctor and actually saw the Nurse Practitioner (NP). They “thought” I could have PCOS, so they sent me for blood work and put me on Metformin 1000mg per day. Discussed provera and told them I didn’t want to do provera again as last time I needed to jump start a period I had AF for over two weeks and they put me back on birth control to stop the bleeding.

Blood work came back with my hormones being normal. Couldn’t confirm PCOS, did confirm I hadn’t yet ovulated and kept me on the metformin. Which, might I add, was a really difficult adjustment. NP said I should get a period within 30 days of being on the metformin. I thought, “perfect”.

CD 75, I contacted the NP and told them I still hadn’t got a BFP or AF. She called in a script for....... you guessed it, provera.

So it’s been 5 days I’ve had the pills sitting in my cupboard. For some reason I’m having a hard time accepting the fact that I’m not pregnant, and bringing myself to take the provera. I had another lh surge about 9 days ago, and thought “well, if I have to do provera waiting anther 2 weeks won’t hurt”. BFN today CD80. I have one more free in my cabinet, I’ll be taking it in 5 days. So until then.......

I have questions, and I feel like I haven’t got any real answers, despite going to the doctors to figure out what is going on. If I’m not ovulating, why? If they think I might have PCOS, why was it so easily dismissed based solely on my blood work and not mentioned again? If my blood work came back normal then why am I still on the metformin, which as far as I understand only real purpose in a PCOS patient is to regulate hormones? If I’m not ovulating, why put me on a pill to jump start a period, why not put me on a pill to jump start ovulation?

Am I wrong for wanting more answers?

Should I get a second opinion? Should I make another consult appointment but insist I see my actual doctor and not the NP or should I possibly see another doctor completely?

Do I need to just listen to the doctors, though I feel like they aren’t trying very hard to help me?

Sorry for the long post. I’m just frustrated and would appreciate the thoughts of someone who is also ttc ❤️ *babydust*