Economically struggling

Honesty I'm at a point in my life where idk if any of this is real. I've gone to several websites looking for jobs, filling out applications, editing my resume for it to be much presentable and nothing. i recently graduated as a medical assistant a few months back but all i see online is i need over 10 years of experience. My bf is not working he is an immigrant he doesn't have an id or anything personal we've tried to ask all of his uncles for work cause they have their own construction company and my phone is disconnected and i owe 3 to 4 months of rent with my mom cause i rent a room. idk what to do with my life sometimes i feel like disappearing and get a way from all this negative vibe that haunts me everyday. i pray, all this year i have gotten alot of financial problems. i know I'm not the only one suffering from all this debt i owe but idk why i feel so lonely and left out cause no job wants to contact me for at least an interview idk what to do I'm really stuck sometimes i feel like I'm cursed. Sorry just had to take all of this bad energy out cause i feel like some of you help me with what can be my next step in life or give me an advice. ***BTW THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME I NEEDED THE ADVICE***