being abused...

im 23 weeks pregnant.. about a month ago, i found some messages in my my now ex boyfriend's phone with a girl.. they were from when we were broken up for two months.. but he swore to me he didnt date this girl, and the messages told a completely different story... so i confronted him and he ended up pushing me up against the wall in my closet holding on to me close to my neck and screaming in my face... he was also verbally abusive.. this night, i cried the entire night and the entire next day and i hated him so much... then i was stupid and let his apologies persuade me to stay... i thought about it sooo much at first, then i slowly just forgot about it and made excuses for him being that way, and pretended nothing ever happened... we aren't together anymore, because i found messages with him and another girl recently and he was telling her all types of things any man in a relationship shouldnt be.. and he ended up locking me out of the house and once again verbally abusing me and telling me how much he hated me and how shitty of a mom i was going to be.. but anyway, i was just laying here watching a youtube video and the girl was being pushed and choked by her boyfriend and she made an excuse for him and said he was playing along with her prank and everything and it really just hit me... that i was abused and i didnt even realize it.... and looking back, i realize he was verbally abusive for a very long time before he became physically abusive... and it breaks my heart that there are sooo many girls in this world staying in an abusive relationship and making excuses for it and pretending it wont happen again or it wont get worse... i got lucky and i got out... but some people dont... there is still NOBODY in my life that knows the whole story and everything he's done to me and it kinda sucks not having anyone that can be there for me.. I just really really wish there was a way to open up people's eyes about situations like this because it really does upset me.