Strange question; maybe not so strange

I'm in a same sex ltr with my gf (29 months today) . I've never orgasmed before. On my own or with her. We tried different positions and toys and when I'm tipsy (more relaxed)... I've watched porn while playing alone and nothing. I get close but can't ever get there.

I'm wondering if I'm "broken" or if a male would be able to get me there. I've never been with one (once but doesn't count -whiskey dick --don't know if he was actually in lmao) but the idea is exciting to me.

What are some ideas or thoughts on this...

I'm 27 and she's 41...

Ps- I'm not like 💯 physically attracted to her but we work and there's love. Could the lack of physical attraction be the reason? That's terrible. I can't believe I'm saying that