Nobody knows who I am on this apt so why not tell everyone. I don’t have a sad back story. There is no reason and I know that. Everyday I’m so tired; I can’t do basic things because I have no motivation. My passion is gone and I have no joy in the things that used to give me pleasure. For 4 years it has been getting worse. I can’t focus on anything and I only want to stay in bed and sleep. I have spoke to NO ONE about how unhappy I am and I put on a cheerful mask each day. I don’t want to seek help because I don’t want people to look at me differently. I have resorted to self harm for several reasons. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live this way, however, that doesn’t stop me from thinking about it anyway. I just needed to write about it to get it off my chest.