Why am I like this?!?

Hailey • 21 • Amaria Rae born on 6/6/2018 • Type 1 Diabetic

Me and my so we're TTC for only two months, and because of choices he's made in the past with drugs and my diabetes I thought it was going to take a looong time to get a bfp but i got one a few days ago with these

Then that same day I took three more name brand tests to make sure the cheapo ones were right (even though there shouldn't be a doubt in my mind since all three were positive)

Then tonight I was out getting ice cream and I got the urge to buy another cheapo one just incase

I was really scared it was going to be negative (for some reason) but of course this showed up almost immediately

Why am I like this