I’m not excited for my baby at all.

I’m almost 7 months pregnant. The father wants to be involved in babies life, and financially we have a plan which is relieving.

I have an over hanging feeling That’s something will be wrong with this baby (fetal alcohol syndrome, or something else [ I got drunk once in my second trimester and until week 8 in my 1st trimester (unknowingly)

And after I found out it was a boy I absolutely just shut down and disconnected from the pregnancy.

Between losing my fiancé of 3 years, now expecting a second child in which I know something will be wrong in my gut, having no actual friends to confide in.

All I have is work. And my first child. Who I hardly get to see because of work, and her school. ):

The feeling has not subsided and I live my life daily at 8 on a depression scale. I feel normal just not excited and alone.