Can I have a kid already??!!

Been trying for two years (w/o opk’s ) and still nothing. Crack heads get pregnant everyday but a married 28 yo woman can’t have a child. My husband is way easy going and isn’t stressed he’s always positive. But I cry my ass off after I tell him it’s negative. I eat more fruits. I work out more by walking more often. I slowed down on my cigarettes (3 packs to 1 pack a week),I drink lots of water, and take prenatal vitamins. I have sum money saved just for this kid. But still every month I down my tears in a bottle of wine bc AF comes. I wish she would just text. Idk but the actual blood is just a slap in the face. Like my body rejected all my efforts and was like “ Naw bitch not enough “.

Aite y’all goodnight.

Rant over